Happy birthday my dearest Ammi

January 6, 2014 at 11:00 pm 3 comments

ammi-abbaji7Midnight  on the night of January 5 and 6 had always been a special occasion for me. It was celebration time. Abbaji’s birthday falls on January 5; Ammi was born on January 6 … they always cut a cake together at midnight. There were smiles all round; exchange of gifts and cards; all of us singing ‘Happy birthday’ slightly off-tune. Those were magical and happy times for our family. I remember how as they grew old together, they still continued the tradition of exchanging birthday cards and gifts – Abbaji still bought for Ammi pieces of jewelery and some of the loveliest silk and chiffon sarees I have ever seen – things he hadn’t been able to give her in the early years of their marriage while he was building his career. It was so sweet to see.

Yesterday was Abbaji’s birthday. He has been feeling rather poorly of late. He suffers from Pulmonary Fibrosis and has withdrawn into himself little by little since Ammi passed away over 10 years ago. A companionship spanning decades had come to an end and I think he has just not been able to accept that Ammi is no longer physically amongst us although her spirit and her love continue to live in each one of us. We cut a cake yesterday as we always do and I sang Happy birthday a little off-tune as I always do; there were gifts as there always are, phone calls from all my siblings to convey special wishes … but none of it was quite the same. It hasn’t been quite the same since Ammi went away. We miss her every moment. She was the most precious person in our lives.

This morning I missed Ammi’s special smile, her unaffected and genuine laughter, her amazing sense of humour, her gentleness, her warmth, her kindness, her love. I wanted so much to wish her Happy Birthday, to give her flowers, to see the delight on her face when I gave her the suits that I had had made for her, to spoil her as much as I could, to make her feel like the most important person in all the world which she was. But I couldn’t. I went instead  to visit her grave, to lay on it a bed of fresh rose petals, to pray that she was blessed with everything her heart desired.

Happy birthday my dearest Ammi. You were the very best mother in the world. We love you … we always have and we always will.

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3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. ramblerz  |  January 6, 2014 at 11:14 pm

    May her soul rest in eternal peace (aameen).

  • 2. Irfan Ahmad  |  January 6, 2014 at 11:34 pm

    Moving tribute! May Allah grant her eternal abode in Jannat ul Firdous. Ameen.

  • 3. Muhammad Azfar Ahsan  |  January 7, 2014 at 10:38 am

    May Allah rest her soul in peace. Ameen.


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